money problems...

gee, I've been having a really bad time trying to save money! I hope paying bills were never invented in this world! I only have two months left before my youngest son's bday... I really wanna get excited for his 1st bday but knowing that I haven't saved even a single peso yet for his bday celebration, aargghh... it makes me crazy.. my 3 year old has been asking me about my plans for his younger brother's bday, and I must admit it has been adding pressure to me..

I hope a weird miracle would happen.. Oh dear God, please shower us lots of money from heaven! (I mean it literally!) Though I know it won't happen; well, nothings wrong with daydreaming..